Worrisome Worries

Being able to have so much free time this week has been fantastic for my devotional time. I have majorally slacked with that during the school year. There is no excuse for my pathetic efforts- I couldn't do it in the morning because I had to get up at 5:30 and then I would be too exhausted at night and crash before I could crack open the Bible. Most days were a mumbled prayer of, "God, please let me survive the day." I'm going to have to do some intense prayerful soul searching to decide how I am going to keep God in the center of my life once school starts again.

When it's summer, spending time with God is FUN and AWESOME! Why can't it be like that all the time? Why am I so selfish when it comes to sleep and everything else I'd rather be doing then spending time with my savior?




Today, I was reading Fear Not Tomorrow, God is Already There and what an inspirational book it is! I saw this book at the library and thought it might be an interesting read- it definitely is! In her book, she mentioned that often times while we are worrying about the future, we are so far removed from God that we cannot focus on him whatsoever. When this happens, we need to remove ourselves from the situation, get along with God, and pray. I have been worrying a lot about my future (and Jason's!) and what it might and might not hold. I am hoping that this book might free me of my worries- which are not things that I share with too many people. I'm a private, prideful person who likes to appear as if she's got it all together! Oh don't we all have that problem!? :) And admitting that things scare me seems to be admitting defeat. I'm really not even sure if Jason has any idea sometimes on how much I stress over the future.

From Bible Gateway reads Matthew 6:25- 34.

²⁵"Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? ²⁶Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? ²⁷Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life^b]">[b]?

²⁸"And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. ²⁹Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. ³⁰If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? ³¹So do not worry, saying, 'What shall we eat?' or 'What shall we drink?' or 'What shall we wear?' ³²For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. ³³But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. ³⁴Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."

These verses encouraged me so much. It puts everything in perspective- why am I worrying about these things? If God takes care of the flowers and animals,surely he will take care of me, his daughter. My father in heaven knows what I need before I even realize it and he also knows on what I DON'T need,which is sometimes different then from what I think. My prayer is that my thoughts, needs, and wants, will be aligned with God's and his purpose and desire for my life,which will lead to freedom from the burden of worry.